Escape from reality
Sometimes life gets so unreal that somehow we need to escape from it. Procrastination, or lack of motivation due getting the same results with or without effort. Not seeing the light on the end of the tunnel, or just imagining that is there.
Living a parallel life, smiling when necessary and not when is needed. Arguing with yourself instead of the other, accepting things that shouldn’t be accepted.
And then a pop of color, and everything gets ok until the next time.